- Mood:
Affection
I just find myself growing more and more attached by the day... it feels weird if we don't talk at least once a day, and see each other about three or four times a week. And still... I don't think he wants to be any more than friends. Which is fine... for now. But I know how that story plays out and I just hope that nothing bad happens, which is the most important thing. One thing I do know though, is that it's nice to have found a new guy to pursue, because after three years stuck on the same guy, it gets kind of old.
Anyway, I'm ridiculous, but I was kind of happy when we texted each other at the exact same moment tonight, about unrelated things.
ALSO, I'm glad we meet in the middle of our age difference. I'm so sick of this high school shit, I'm glad I'm out of it. I mean, I loved high school. Loved it. I was right in the middle of everything, right in there with all the extracurricular and friends and everything... but I'm glad to be done, and gone, and not have to deal with all the drama and people and... God. Just so glad to finally be able to be myself without having to worry about people telling me to stop "correcting" them. I don't even know what that means, all I did was make a sarcastic joke and all of a sudden I have a girl on my back saying "I'm so glad I don't have to put up with your shit and hear your opinion from 30 feet away every day of my life" when I think I spoke to her once in my life, IF that, and was usually fairly quiet when in big group discussions. I think she was mistaking me for someone else. Hilarious.
Anyhow, I can't read him. I vary from definite yes to definite no. Fun, eh?
I probably just need to get laid or something. That's what my dad told me, anyway.